recently....feeling upset and useless.....feel sorry for everyone around me because i bring in the negative energy~~especially for eric....he has a busy job and he still tries his best to make me happy. i'm pretty sure i will be happier when i start my courses~~i will make new friends and try to find a part-time job to make myself busy....hate being useless

last night, eric and i went to see "holiday festival on ice"...it's figure skating performance and presented by world top figure skaters....watched them skating on ice with slimes and the way they moved just like angels flying around.....turning, jumping and sliding on the ice with music....it was increditable~~~so i decide that i want to learn ice skating and start next week....i believe that i will have fun.....and want to thank my honey for that.....i am here with you and i have you loving me, i believe i am the luckiest person in the world.....^^

becoming chinese vision for my baby sister^^

為了我的寶貝妹妹變成中文版^^

最近覺得很沒用而且心情不好，覺得對不起我身邊的人，因為我帶給他們負面的能量…尤其是艾瑞克，他工作很忙，可是他盡他最大的力量讓我開心。我很確定我開學之後會變的比較開心，因為我會交新的朋友，然後再找一個兼職的工作來讓我自己變的很忙…討厭自己是個米蟲……

昨天晚上，艾瑞克帶我去看”holiday festival on ice”(這個就沒有中文可以翻了啦！)那是世界頂尖花式溜冰選手做的表演，看他們帶著笑容在溜冰，看起來就像天使在身邊圍繞…隨著音樂在冰上旋轉、跳躍和滑行…超神奇…所以～～我決定我下個星期要開始學溜冰了，雖然我知道我一定會摔得很慘～～我還要謝謝艾瑞克帶我去看表演……我現在在這裡有你愛我，我相信我是最世界上最幸運的人了...^^

first day in this year, first time in my whole life, it's a snowy day.... never thought about white is a such beautiful color~~i am just like a little kid seeing santa, totally out of control, couldn't stop screaming and laughing. just want to stand in the snow, touch it and feel it with every single cell of my skin....until i realize it's freezing cold...^^

make myself a cup of coffee and sit next to windows, i just couldn't help myself not to stare at it....watching the snow covers the grass, cars and everything~~it's like heaven beside it's damn cold...

sorry about phoning back at 5 in the morning, my dear mommy and joan..^^ i can't wait to tell you how beautiful it is and how happy i am....made a little snowman for myself -- i am so HAPPY!! even though my little snowman is god damn ugly.....

今年的第一天，我人生的第一次，今…天…下…雪…了…，我做了一個世界無敵醜的小雪人，可是我還是很開心。

親愛的老媽－－不好意思早上五點打給你，就是要跟你說今天下雪了…

在這裡過著這樣的生活，都要謝謝艾瑞克，沒有他的支持和疼愛，我是不可能在這裡追求我的夢想的，說不出的感謝和感動，我一定會努力的…

大家都要加油，都要過的幸福喔！！！